Too Great and Too Wide

I am thinking why "A" thing suppose to happen in my life?

Why God put me in "B" situation?

And why God choose me to be in "C" condition?

I believe most of us have ever asked those kind of question in your life.

I personally ever asked these questions to God in my confusion in the reality of life.

I am trying and trying to comprehend what God wants me to be? what is His bright and the hopeful purpose as He said in Isaiah?

But I am finally realize, I am too limited to comprehend His thought and purposes in my life, so I will never know exactly what it id until He who the first one reveals it to me.

Our God is too great and too wide to be comprehended by our mind and our soul.

In fact, we are human who fall in sin. We want everything make sense and God's answer supposes to be beneficial answers for us. We are selfish. Whether you realize it or not, even when we keep our faith to God is just because we hope we could get something more from Him.

The answers is so simple, and is just one answer; it's all about HIM. Why I say this? Because He is our creator, without Him we will never exist. He has already died in the cross just because of us who is sinned. could you pay for His salvation? Nope, you never and ever can pay it off. so do you think we have a right to ask God more for our selfish wishes such as I want an happiness so I have to married, I have to get in in "A" university, get a lot of money, etc?? we can ask that. it is a normal thing but you have to ask your self, what is it for. is it for the glory of God and effectiveness for His plan in our life, or just for your own happiness and satisfaction?

Nothing eternal in this life. Don't let this worldly things make you replace His place with other things. God can gives it to you easily if He wants it, but because He loves us so much, He knows what are the things that is good for us. Sometimes, the things that we think is good for us, it doesn't necessary good in God's measurement.

to come to this point, it takes time. I take for 4 years to come to this point. is not an easy process to go through but it help me a lot to see God as the only God I can depend on, I trust and I believe in. and I also finally understand what paul means by "Life is Christ, and Die is gain", and also Philipians 1:20-24.

Wish this could become a blessing for all of you.

Gbu.

Sweet17een

First of all, I am so thankful to God for His grace and blessing for these 17 years which make me can experience Him more deeply in my daily life. Day by day as I am getting older, I am yearning to have an intimate relationship with Him. For me, the greatest happiness that could not buy in this world is the intimate relationship with Him.

He teach me a lot of things that sometimes I couldn't understand what He was trying to say? but Finally I learn so much things, they are:

1. the only one you can depend on, you can trust, you can put you hope, is only God.

2. Bearing the cross is the act of our faith toward Him. It's not easy but He will give us a strength to go through the bearing cross. Sometimes, because of our selfishness we tend to query with Him power.

3. I learned the ultimate love and fulfillment that I only can get is through Jesus Christ.

4. Nothing can replace the truth of the Gospel

5. How to experience God in my life

6. If I think back again how He works in me and make me through a lot of things I have been through, I realize I couldn't pay His grace and blessing for the rest of my life.

7. And I know He loves me so much. No body can replace His love in my heart :)

Second, I want to thanks to God for my Parents who have already raised me up and encouragement, and I also want to thank you to my brother who support me and always care for me, and my sisters who always encourage me.

Third, I want to thanks for God that He send David for me. I learn what is true love that only come from the love of God through him. And also thank you for David because he always beside me in pray and thanks for the love that we have already committed before God. I love you :)

forth, all of you; who have already become part of my life for this 17 years.

on my birthday, I am feel so happy to see how much God loves me, and how He works in my life. Besides, I also got a TIRAMISUUU cake, several gift, and warm hug from ICC congregation with 158 greeting from all over the world :)

and last, my new commitment for this year is "all about Him." Rome 11:36

Here I am, start a new challenging lifeeeee!!!Thank you God!!

You are the only one I will love faithfully forever :)

"Lisa"

In fact, I didn't like my name because I felt Lisa means nothing and I have ever asked my parent about why they gave me a name called "Lisa"? and they didn't give me a clear answer so I feel curious about my name hehehe...

This summer, I went to Superstore with Cik maria and we found out there is a book about name's meaning for female. And we open it up and I felt so proud with my name.

I found out, Lisa is originated from hebrew means "consecrated to God". Wowww I love this name so much. And I told Ps. Welliam about my name, He said "Yes, it is true, Your life is consecrated to God. we never know maybe God wants you to do one mission in this world so He called you as a minister to fulfill His plan so the other plan could works.Like elizabeth, eventhough she is not really mentioned in the bible but her existence is important in Jesus birth role."

It is true. I come to this world just to fulfill His plan. If I am done, He will ask me to meet Him face to face. That's the greatest thing that I am waiting and yearning for.

"his is in keeping with my own eager desire and persistent expectation and hope, that I shall not disgrace myself nor be put to shame in anything; but that with the utmost freedom of speech and unfailing courage, now as always heretofore, Christ (the Messiah) will be magnified and get glory and praise in this body of mine and be boldly exalted in my person, whether through (by) life or through (by) death.For me to live is Christ [His life in me], and to die is gain [the gain of the glory of eternity].If, however, it is to be life in the flesh and I am to live on here, that means fruitful service for me; so I can say nothing as to my personal preference [I cannot choose],But I am hard pressed between the two. My yearning desire is to depart (to be free of this world, to set forth) and be with Christ, for that is far, far better;But to remain in my body is more needful and essential for your sake.(Philippians 1:20-24)

Because You Love Me

Ini adalah post pertama gw so it will become a special posting hehehe...

"Because You Love Me" lagu ini gw denger ketika gw berada di Center Street Church dalam rangka Father's day. Ketika lagu ini dimainkan, gw merenungkan setiap kata-kata dalam lagu ini. Didalam benakku, gw berpikir "Tuhan, manusia bisa menyanyikan lagu yg begitu indah ini untuk orang yg begitu special bagi hidup mereka, apakah pernah mereka menyanyikan lagu ini sebagai represent hati mereka bagi Tuhan?"

Ini lyric daripada lagi "Because You Love Me":

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby
You're the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through through it all


You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith 'coz you believed
I'm everything I am
Because you loved me


You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

I'm everything I am
Because you loved me

Comment:
Kalo kita perhatikan lirik demi lirik, kata-kata daripada lagu ini hampir setiap baris merepresent "For all/every..." and "you were...".

Kata "For all/every.."bagi gw pribadi merupakan suatu kalimat yg merepresentkan untuk segalanya dalam hidup ini, or no execption from everything. Dan kata "You were..." merepresentkan kamu memiliki suatu arti dan menjadi bagian bagi hidup saya.

Ketika gw denger lagu gw berpikir, "seharusnya Tuhan, kata for all/everything dan You were" hanya layak diberikan kepada Engkau saja karena manusia tidak sempurna, apalah hak bagi kita untuk mendapatkan suatu appreciation yg bersifat as awhole?"

Selain itu, gw belajar dari lagu ini bahwa kita menjadi segalanya ketika kita dicintai oleh Allah Bapa kita karena tidak ada yg bisa mencuri kasih yg sempurna dari Allah ketika Allah sudah memutuskan mencintai kita sebagai anakNya. We become something, whe we loved by our God.

I wish I could dance with my groom with this song to represent my appreciation to God that He have already loved me first with His perfect love so I can love my groom with His love.